Don't ever doubt

It might be a little odd

That I’m enamored with you

But don’t ever doubt

That my emotions are true

I might be young

And a little unprepared

But I’ll be distraught

If you never know I care

Sure it’s not proper

Of course it’s not right

But you’re the one I want

On this dark and stormy night

Sure you’ll never love me

The way that I love you

But don’t ever doubt

That my emotions are true

Only You

Only you can make me feel this way

Like my life is worthless

Only you can make me feel this way

Like I always have to hide

Only you can make me feel this way

Like the world is always ending

Only you can make me feel this way

Like I’m dead inside

You should be the shoulder I cry on

The lighthouse in my storm

But instead you’re the wind and waves

That make me think I’ll never see the morn

Only you can tear me down

Into a thousand pieces

Only you can tear me down

As if I’m nothing at all

Only you can tear me down

Until there’s nothing left

Only you can tear me down

Until I have to crawl

You should be one I run to

The rock on which I stand

But instead you’re the wave

The beats upon the sand

I’ll never ever forgive you

As long as I live

Because you’ve taken it all

I have no more to give

Too High

La ti so

What do I do?

Do re fa

I can’t help but loose

How can I defeat the world

When everything’s against me

How can I surf this tidal wave

When it just won’t let me be

I’m boxed in on all sides

With no escape

When it’s at it’s worst

All I can do is wait

It’s harder to be me

Than even I realize

It’s hard to be free

When the stakes are so high

La ti so

Where do I go?

Do re fa

It seems I’m caught

How can I keep bobbing along

When everything’s against me

How can I find the light

When they just won’t let me be

I’m boxed in on all sides

With no escape

When it’s at it’s worst

All I can do is wait

It’s harder to be me

Than even I realize

It’s hard to be free

When the stakes are so high

I’m falling apart

With every day

Spent in this

Unnatural race

I don’t even know

If the prize is worth my time

But I’ve to keep running

If I want a chance to shine

My Bad Romance

It’s like a bad romance film

Filled with drama and tension

But after watching lives fall apart

I think I’ve learned my lesson

I love you both, I love you still

It’s how the story goes

But you could never love me back

I’m left with a wilted rose

The problem with the storybooks

Is that they’re all fiction

It’s the way my life is too

Nothing comes to fruition

I don't even Dare

I can read your thoughts, your mind

As you dance around, pretending to be kind

I can see the darkest gloom you hide inside your soul

I can see through every single lie you’ve ever told

But do you see me, I wonder?

Can you see the light?

Or are you trapped by yourself

And the deep parts of the night?

I can call your bluff each time

And wreck your every rhyme

I can tell you when you’re wrong

As you string them all along

But can you feel my touch my dear?

Can you fee the pain?

Or are you so trapped by your greed

That you melt out in the rain?

You’ll never know my love

You’ll never know I care

I could tell you, tell you everything

But I don’t even dare

Pretty Blonde World

A pretty blonde boy

Met a pretty blonde girl

They lived together

In a pretty blonde world

But me, I’m not blonde

Never have been, never can be

But they don’t care, living in bliss

Their pretty blonde world is all they can see

A pretty blonde boy

Loved a pretty blonde girl

He asked her to marry him

In their pretty blonde world

The pretty blonde girl

Said yes to the pretty blond boy

And all of the pretty blond friends

Shared in their pretty blonde joy

But me, I’m not blonde

Never have been, never will be

But they don’t care, living in bliss

Their pretty blonde world is all they can see

I loved that pretty blonde boy

More than that pretty blonde girl

But that pretty blonde boy

Was too wrapped up in his pretty blonde world

My world is darker

But somehow more real

If he’d put on some shades

He might know how I feel

But now a handsome dark man

Has found me and whisked me away

So while I’m not in the pretty blonde world

I’m happy at the end of the day

But me, I’m not blonde

Never have been, never will be

But I don’t care, living in bliss

Their pretty blonde world isn’t all it’s cracked up to be

A pretty blonde boy

Met a pretty blonde girl

They lived together

In a pretty blonde world

Not that angsty

If you could look at the sky

And see nothing but blue

You’d know what I feel

When I look at you

It might sound a bit cheesy

But that’s all right

‘Cause we’ll be together

Through the days and the nights

You give me a reason to say

How sweet the world is

When I’m with you

How I’m alive

When I’m with you

Life can throw

What it will at me

When I’m with you

I’m something to be

How green the grass

When I’m with you

It's a wonderful life

Life is never what you want it to be

You go to sniff the roses and you’re stung by a bee

So be careful what you wish for ‘cause stars can kill

And nothing can be solved by just taking a pill

It would be wonderful…

If only there were some way to stop all the pain

If only there were someone to save us again

It’s easier to see the glass as completely full

When you’re sitting and you’re listening to all of their bull

Life is never what you want it to be

You live it in a world where there is nothing to see

So be careful what you wish for ‘cause dandelions bite

With the world that’s around us you can never be right

It would be wonderful…

But keeping your act together can be such a pain

If only there were someone to save us again

It’s easier to see the rose-colored dreams

When you take them off and make sure the lenses are clean

It would be wonderful…

It would be wonderful…

It would be wonderful…

Restless

I got this restless feeling that I can’t ignore

It’s pounding at my heart like he’s pounding on the door

I know I said I wanted all that and more

But I also know I’m better than what he’s got in store

I said I loved him

But I lied

He said he loved me

I could have cried

But now he’s screaming and begging

And I got to say

If he’d let me have my space

He might have had his way

I got this itch in my spine that I just can’t ignore

It’s driving me bananas and leaves me wanting more

I know I said when he touched me he rocked me to the core

But I also said being with him would open up some doors

I said I liked him

But I lied

He said he loved me

I could have died

Now he’s screaming and begging

And I got to say

If he had never been

I might have had my way

Must have been a dream

I remember a time

Long long ago

When you said

You’d never let go

I remember a time

When the world was all green

But then I woke up

To a different scene

The lights were dim

The grass withered and gone

And the people around me

Said it was like that all along

It must have just been a dream

Not one ounce of reality

It’s nothing like it used to be

‘Cause you and I are nothing

I remember a day

When the sun would shine

And I know in my heart

That you would always be mine

I remember a day

When the world was sublime

But I guess that life

Is in a different time

The lights are dim

The grass withered and gone

I guess it’s been like this

All along

It must have just been a dream

Not one ounce of reality

It’s nothing like it used to be

‘Cause you and I are nothing

We're nothing

I'll Pray for You

My faith isn’t the best

You might say it’s on the ground

But I can see you’re hurting

Even though you don’t make a sound

I can’t say I’m religious

I can’t say I’m spiritual

But if only to help you through it

I’ll start a ritual

To keep you on your feet

And from feeling blue

If I pray for no one else

I’ll pray for you

You shoulder all their burdens

Even imaginary ones

You keep your morals steady

And smile like you’ve already won

So I’ll use this little song

To tell you how I feel

For you I’ll do something odd

I’ll bow my head and kneel

I can’t say I’m religious

I can’t say I’m spiritual

But if only to help you through it

I’ll start a ritual

To keep you on your feet

And from feeling blue

If I pray for no one else

I’ll pray for you

I’ll pray for you

Tell Me

Tell me I’m stupid for caring so much

Tell me I’m stupid for trying

Tell me whatever you think I deserve

Just don’t tell me to stop crying

Tell me I’m stupid for thinking of clouds

Tell me I’m stupid to reaching

Tell me whatever you think I deserve

But don’t you dare start preaching

You can tell me what you want

You can call me a bitch

But don’t expect my sympathy

‘Cause you ain’t getting shit

Tell me I’m stupid for wanting the best

Tell me I’m stupid for dreaming

Tell me whatever you think I deserve

But don’t cry as I’m leaving

You can tell me what you want

You can call me a bitch

But don’t expect my devotion

‘Cause you ain’t getting shit

Say what you will

Say what you want

Say what you will

Say what you want

You can tell me what you want

You can call me a bitch

But don’t expect my gratitude

‘Cause you ain’t getting shit

Me and You

You’re the star of the play

You’re the talk of the town

Not even the weather

Can get you down

You’re the life of the party

You’re center of attention

Not once do you stop

And look at your reflection

If you did you’d see

All the lies and greed

If you did you’d see

What you’re doing to me

You said that you loved me

But I know it’s not true

If you really loved me

I’d be more important than you

You take your fame

And your achievements

I don’t really need you

Just go and get bent

You said that you loved me

But I know it’s not true

If you really loved me

I’d be more important than you

Model Citizen

Keep your conscience locked in a jar in your pantry

Ignoring what the preacher man says on Sunday

Tell the children one thing then do another

You could change your life, but you don’t bother

Life here in heaven sure is sweet

But you’re deceiving every person you meet

Waltzing around acting like you care

They might call you on it, but never dare

You could start to do good

But you don’t have the time

Sleeping around

Drinking too much wine

You’re the model citizen

Out in the world

But behind closed doors

You’d make a stripper hurl

So take your red dress

And slip on some shoes

‘Cause in the end

You’re just bad news

The Depths

Overshadowed by my own pride

I walk unbound, but blind

Searching for answers that will never come

When the division is greater than the sum

I’ll never find that melody

That makes my heart sing

I’ll never find a way

To feel for every little thing

Enraptured by unattainable desires

Supplied by a gothic choir

I look to the east for the setting sun

But I won’t find it, no matter where I run

I’ll never find that rhythmic beat

That sets my feet to dancing

I’ll never find a way

To create something lasting

Hope is foreign

Love ever failing

Faith is dashed

The sun ever paling

I’ll never find that dancer

That leads me step by step

I’ll never find a way

To come up from the depths

Sheep

Dye your hair purple

It’s what the cool people are doing

Don’t worry about the price

In the long run you won’t notice your pride going

Wear this shirt, but tear it up first

It’s the latest fashion

Try on these skinny jeans that destroy your heart

You don’t need any passion

Running this race

You aren’t going to win

The more you try

The more they drag you into sin

The price of beauty

Is rising ever higher

Soon you’ll have nothing left

Selling to the highest bidder

Like this band

If you don’t you suck

If you don’t conform

You’re completely out of luck

Love only the beautiful people

‘Cause everyone else hates your guts

But all the beautiful people

They’re all attention-grabbing sluts

Limping along

Trying to fit in

The more you try

The more they drag you into sin

The price of living (this lie)

Is rising ever higher

Soon you’ll have nothing to gain

Selling to the highest bidder

In finding yourself

You lost it all

Now the freaks and geeks

Are the ones watching you fall

You could have learned to love

If you’d learned to be yourself

And not some spoilt princess’ dream

You could have learned to fight

For things that weren’t as they seem

Lying in the dirt

You aren’t going to win

The more you tried

The more they dragged you into sin

The price of happiness

Is too much to think about

Now you have nothing left

Not even the breath to shout

Farewell

Farewell to thee

I hope you stay

Happy and content

All of your days

Farewell to thee

I know you’ll find

A way that’s sure

And friends so kind

The sorrow won’t last

The joy will remain

For this lingering cheer

Overshadows the pain

Parting ways like this

Is so hard to do

Know that in my heart

I’ll remember you

Farewell to thee

I hope you know

Your path is blessed

Wherever you go

Madam Moonshine

She wore a silver ring on her finger
The stone blacker than the night
She stared into it each evening
Searching for her knight

Her wishes were made on stars
But her hope was built on sand
She wanted a handsome face
When she needed a helping hand

She wore a dress made of gold
It was so bright it outshone the sun
But if she'd asked the tailor's advice
She might have found the one

Her wishes were made on stars
But her hope was built on sand
She wanted a handsome face
When she needed a helping hand

Now she dances with the ghost
Of her hopes and dreams long gone
And the only ones that remember her
Are the ones who sing this song

Beauty

I know I should say you're pretty

That your face outshines the sun

But I refuse to lie to you

It seems I'm the only one

Beauty is as beauty does

If that's true I think you're screwed

I would say that to your face

But I do so hate being rude

I once thought the world of you

But then I got to see

All the nasty things you hide inside

And how petty you can be

Lovely is as Lovely does

If that's true I think you're screwed

But I won't say that to you

'Cause I don't want to seem crude

Now you stand before me

Your eyes all red and sad

We could have had it all

But you're a bitch and I'm a cad

Beauty is as beauty does

Which proves we're both screwed

You a bit and me a lot

'Cause none of this is true

Music

Play a chord or two, if you'd like

Tune a string or two, if you'd like

I don't care if the song's too loud

I don't care if the song's too sad

I just want to keep it going

If you don't like that, too bad

Get out on the dance floor, if you'd like

Bust a move or two, if you'd like

I don't care if you can't take the heat

I don't care if the rhythm's off-beat

I just want the song to keep going

I just want you up off your seat

The music is the rhythm

The rhythm is the beat

Stop your lolly-gagging

And get up on your feet

I don't care if the music's too fast

I don't care if this isn't your crowd

I just want the song to keep going

I just want to scream it out loud

The Office

Typing in your report of lies
You sip your coffe and let life pass you by
It could be amazing, living life free
But you don't care, you just collect your fee

Your world is your office
Your office is the moon
Remote from the pleasures
A little boxed-in room
You world is complete
With just your keyboard and mind
But your life could be better
If you just found the time

Typing in a report of lies
You dream of a world where nobody sighs
It could be amazing, living life free
But you have no idea who you would be

Your world is your office
Your office is the mooon
Remote from the pleasures
A little boxed-in room
Your world is complete
With just your keyboard and mind
But life could be better
If you'd just find the time

Slip in the shadows
Hide in the light
Keep your head down
Avoid all fights

Your World is complete
With just your keyboard and mind
But life could be better
If you'd just find the time

The Battle

I’m walking blind

Through a sea of lines

Some of them meant to be crossed

I’m finding time

To realize

That the battle isn’t lost

Hope doesn’t come easy

When you’re attacked on all sides

Faith doesn’t happen

When you’re ducking, trying to hide

But the sun shines in the darkness

Even when it’s waning

And the clouds will clear some day

Even though it’s raining

I’m walking blind

Through a sea of lines

Some of them meant to be crossed

I’m finding time

To realize

That the battle isn’t lost

Keep your head above water

And you’ll find your way to shore

Keep your head above water

Even when you’re unsure

I’m walking blind

Through a sea of lines

Some of them meant to be crossed

I’m finding time

To realize

That the battle isn’t lost

No Need

There's no need for a revolution

When the world's already spinning

There's no need for you to lose

When everybody's winning

And I can see the sun

It's shinning on the winners

But I can't see the moon

It shows the way for sinners

The light in the darkness

Is only as bright

As the frown you gave me

On that winter's night

There's no need for sorrow

When you've already got strife

There's no need for hanging

When you're given a knife

And I can't see the sun

It's shinning on the winners

But I can see the moon

It shows the way for sinners

The light in the darkness

Is only as bright

As the jewels you're crying

In all vain delight

There's no need for laughter

When all you've got is joy

There's no need for kindness

When you're all girls and boys

And I can't see the sun

It's shining on the winners

And I can't see the moon

It shows the way for sinners

The light in the darkness

Is only as bright

As the hope for tomorrow

That's swallowed by the night

Life isn't cheerful

When you're living a lie

Life isn't happy

When you feel you're going to die

There's no need for a revolution

When the world's already spinning

There's no need for loss

'Cause there's no way you're winning

Dead boy's poem

She was like a white flame burning on a black candle

Hot and fierce and too pure for me to handle

She game me light while taking my all

She held me up while letting me fall

Her love was a laugh, her hate was a tear

She gave me nothing but strife when I showed my fear

I could have abandoned her if I tried

But by the time I thought to, I'd already died

Troubled Waters

I want to think deep thoughts

But with every single drop

From this bottle in my hand

My brain turns to sand

My sorrow and my shame

Runs through my very veins

And the pain I’ve caused you

Keeps finding ways to run me through

I should have said I’m sorry

But I didn’t so here I am

Wasting away my forever

In this bare and useless land

I want to say I love you

But that would be too cruel

Because I wouldn’t mean it

And that’s why I feel like shit

I Could Say

I could say I'm happy

I could say I'm free

But I can't even tell

How much of a lie that'd be.

I could say I'm cheerful

As gay as any bird

But if I did, that'd be

The worst lie you'd ever heard

Some might say I'm emo

Some might say depressed

Either way I'm mellow

And far from being repressed

I could say I'm sad

Or down in the dumps

But to tell the truth, it's not that bad

Taking all the lumps

She's the reason

She's longing for something she can't express

Never finding a place of rest

She waders the world with her head in the sand

Wishing only for a helping hand

Her stars are all blue

And have nothing to do

With the pain she feels

When her mask is peeled

She can't let the moon see the stars

For if he did the lies would go too far

The innocent laughter she had as a child

Was lost when she became meek and mild

She can't find the time

To let the sun shine

And always gives in

To the temptations of sin

She's the reason for my song today

She's the reason for the words I say

She's the reason my heart breaks

She's the wish I make upon a star

She's the one I know will go far

She's the reason my hands shake

I may never be the one

But she will always be my sun

She's the reason

Random Bout of Angstiness!

I’m on the brink of something

I just don’t know what.

Whether it’s success or despair,

I really don’t care

I know no one’s life is easy

But mine’s the worst yet

It’s filled with drama and repression

Enough to throw you into a depression

I’m seventeen, living proof

That someone out there cares

Doesn’t matter if it’s some spirit guide

I’m just going along for the ride

I know I have the ability to be something great

I know I could do things if I tried

But after being overlooked so many times

I think I’ll stick to making useless rhymes

If I die tomorrow

If I die tomorrow
Remember me today
And keep me in your thoughts
As you go on your way

If I die tomorrow
With dreams that never were
Remeber all life gave me
Love, hate, and so much laughter

If I die tomorrow
Today I give you love
Remeber each hug and kiss
Each pinch and bite and shove

If I die tomorrow
Know I didn't die in vain
For death's sweet embrace gave me
Release from all the pain

Life of Hate

I’ve cried more tears for you

Than for myself

I’ve done things I wouldn’t do

If not for you

You tear me down and never

Build me up again

And I don’t know how to make

This chapter end

So I’ll stew in silence

Waiting for my chance

So I’ll plot in darkness

Planning my last glance

You might say you love me

You might say you care

But I’ve never loved you

And everyday you dare

To tear out my soul

In too many ways

To dictate my words

And plan out my days

I’m here to tell you

That that ain’t gonna fly

And with this little number

I’ll say goodbye

To this life you’ve given me

This life of hate

And sorries you might have

They’re all too late

Paper Dreams

Never say never say never

For you’ll always end up in December

Beating at the cold hard gates

Of what you can and can’t relate

The dark shadows of tomorrow

Overshadow the past of today

And the bright sunrise of forgiveness

Is dulled by the way you say

I’ll stop wondering how to live

When you stop making paper airplanes

I’ll stop hating your whole world

When you stop making paper cranes

In the summer of the springtime

In the winter of the fall

We’ll band together like fools

And we’ll learn to take it all

Life isn’t easy when you live

Christmas never comes for those who give

Keeping your heart locked up

Is the only way to keep things from getting rough

I’ll stop wondering how to live

When you stop making paper snowflakes

I’ll stop hating your whole world

When you stop crying into lakes

In the summer of the springtime

In the winter of the fall

We’ll band together like fools

And we’ll learn to take it all

The turn of the century

Is coming today

And the end of the world

Will happen tomorrow

But the hope for the future

Is crushed by the past

And when you find yourself first

You’ll come into last

Night Wish

I auditioned for a part

In a dark passion play

I tried to do my best

But I heard the director say

"You don't fit the part,

You don't fit the role

All you can do is watch

As the play slowly unfolds"

So now I sit and watch

And someone else lives my life

My only comfort being hope

And my solace being night

This year

It’s the end of a year

And a new beginning

It’s the end of an era

And a new forgiving

I hope this year, this time

You’ll understand

For this year, this time

I’m going to take a stand

I don’t want this year to be the same

I don’t want to look back and say

“I didn’t do anything different”

“I didn’t do anything right.”

This year I’m going to have my beginning

This year I’m going to have my night.

It’s the start of the year

And a new creation

It’s the start of an era

And a new relation

I hope this year, this time

I’ll get to see the world

For this year, this time

I’ll finally find the words

I don’t want this year to be the same

I don’t want to look back and say

“I didn’t do anything different”

“I didn’t do anything right.”

This year I’m going to have my beginning

This year I’m going to have my night.

As I look up to all the stars

That have all come before

I think of all the ways

I’ll open up the door

I know this year, this time

I’ll get to see the world

For this year, this time

I’ll finally find the words

I don’t want this year to be the same

I don’t want to look back and say

“I didn’t do anything different”

“I didn’t do anything right.”

This year I’m going to have my beginning

This year I’m going to have my night.